Fasting, Calling, and Managing the Naaman Complex

A fasting day dedicated to seeking a closer connection with God and a greater understanding of my need for Him provides a perfect time to reflect upon my calling. What is my calling? A nearly  impossible question to answer while immersed in a noisy, competitive, materialistic, performance oriented culture; a question which requires dedicated prayer and assistance from the Holy Spirit to answer. Especially when the same norms and standards often poison and pollute my religious environment — the only difference: what is counted and the measure of success. The obsession with measurable success remains. How am I doing? How does my church compare to the church next door? Am I doing more and bigger things? This noise of the world crowds out God and prevents me from hearing Him. In this environment, I easily mistake individualism for spirituality. “As lust counterfeits love, individualism counterfeits spirituality.” Oswald Chambers.

The song, ‘Big Time,’ by Peter Gabriel that lampoons the Bigger, Better Deal (BBD) idea of Western, especially American culture. At the end of the second stanza of the song, he sings with great pride and self-satisfaction:

‘I’ll be a big noise with all the big boys, so much stuff I will own

And I will pray to a big god, as I kneel in the big church’

At the end of the fourth stanza he sings with the same pride and self-satisfaction:

‘And my heaven will be a big heaven,

And I will walk through the front door’

Naaman Complex and Killing the BBD

Off and on during my life I struggle with the BBD. Like Naaman in 2 Kings, chapter 5 I look for some great to do, some great and big calling. When I draw near to God in studying his word, in prayer, and in fasting: he calls me not to some great thing but respect (often described as  fear). From me He seeks this holy fear, love, obedience, and dependence (trust) upon him. And what he wants is for me to be of value to Him, something not measurable by the world’s measures of success. Remember and memorize Luke 16:15.

Questions I can ask myself when an idea that might become a religious Naaman Complex or BBD or Obsessive Delusion comes over me:

  1. Do I still want to do this if I must do it in secret with only God as the witness?
  2. Do I still want to do this if someone else gets the credit?
  3. Have I forgotten that no matter how well I do; compared to what Christ has done for me that my obedience and response to his commands should be “I have only done that which was my duty.” Luke 17:10
  4. What gain do I expect other than ‘well done good and faithful servant?’
  5. If my role is to pass this on to someone else to fulfill, am I at peace with that?
  6. Have I ignored an opportunity to ‘give a cup of cold water to a little one’ to pursue my perceived calling?
  7. If my ministry helping three unknown elderly people become better disciples, am I at peace with this; so involved and grateful to serve that I never think that I should be doing something else? More visible to others?

“The great enemy of the Lord Jesus Christ today is the idea of practical work that has no basis in the New Testament but comes from the systems of the world. This work insists upon endless energy and activities, but no private life with God. The emphasis is put on the wrong thing. Jesus said, “The kingdom of God does not come with observation….For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you. It is a hidden, obscure thing. An active Christian worker too often lives to be seen by others, while it is the innermost, personal area that reveals the power of a person’s life.

We must get rid of the plague of the spirit of this religious age in which we live. In our Lord’s life there was none of the pressure and the rushing of tremendous activity that we regard so highly today, and a disciple is to be like His Master. The central point of the kingdom of Jesus Christ is a personal relationship with Him, not public usefulness to others.” Oswald Chambers

Whose Praise do I Seek?

  1. Have I forgotten that my ministry begins with my family and those closest to me, my neighbors (those I am physically near) in reality not in social media?
  2. Remember, my primary call is always to love God and my neighbor (those within reach).
  3. Do I think about the “praise of men” more than the praise of God? John 12:43. I must spend much time praying about this and asking God to speak to me. This common disease of the Pharisees is very common today and can be buried under many layers of self deceit.
  4. A good question from Oswald Chambers: “Are you faithful to Jesus, or faithful to your ideas about Him?”
  5. Does it give me joy to think: His grace is sufficient? If I think I need more, a disconnect with my Lord exists.
  6. Who is the hero of my imagined story? Do I feel heroic when I daydream about it? If I am the hero and not Christ, it is likely an obsessive delusion which needs more prayer. Here I must confess every speck of self-deceit to my Lord and get the help of the Holy Spirit. Delusions can steer me away from my true calling. Living out 1 Corinthians 13 anchors any true calling. Fasting will reveal the strength of the anchor or the absence.

“When I have really transacted business with God on His covenant and have let go entirely, there is no sense of merit, no human ingredient in it at all, but a complete overwhelming sense of being brought into union with God, and the whole thing is transfigured with peace and joy.” Oswald Chambers

When I hear: How does my church compare to the church next door? Is it growing as fast as they are? Is my ministry successful? The solution to this problem begins with me and my refusal to participate in this religiously veneered worldliness and to remind myself and those who ask such questions to lean upon God, trust him, and go where he sends, and to know the peace described in Psalm 131.

Decision from Him, not My Naaman Complex

His call might very well lead me to something bigger than I could ever imagine, but that is for him to decide and direct. God has a call and a vision for all: primarily to love as he does. Any specific further vision and calling for my life will not be found in a desire for the BBD, envy, comparison, or a need to fulfill my ego. It will be in context of loving as he does and subjugated to that. His definition of success may even be invisible to my understanding. I can only find my calling in relationship to him and in much prayer. Fasting and prayer can sharpen my sense of dependence and, with practice, help me shed the Naaman complex.

If you’ve never fasted and you struggle with keeping your calling free of the BBD, I encourage you to make this the topic of prayer on your next fasting day. Remember a calling is to service, obedience, and love, not to measurable results. The results may be enormous and abundant; but they belong to God, and he gets the credit. All this takes massive effort in letting go, concentration, sacrifice of ego, and ongoing confession, but I am not alone. With the power of the Holy Spirit, I can overcome ego, massive self-deceit, and the Naaman Complex and move closer to grasping the holiness he has destined for me.

Fasting reveals the Anger and Irritability Index

Self will and the rule of the stomach scream during a fast often creating irritability and anger. Fasting is where I can reveal the battlefield within myself, crucify all rights to self, and seek God’s healing for my selfishness. This angry child I encounter during fasting is my true nature. The one that is revealed when I don’t get my way. Every time I am angry, I can pray: “My name is dead. No right to self remains. Jesus lives and grows in me. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.” See 2 Corinthians 5:21. I must keep fighting this battle until no speck of gain, competitiveness, or “winning” remains, only a sense of peace.

Reflect Upon Attitudes of Public and Private Worship

How sick I am with the Naaman Complex directly impacts how I choose to worship publicly and privately. For more on this subject, read Worship or Sunday Sacrifice. Is My Religion Classic Greek?

Prayer for when thoughts of glory and measurable success arise

Father you know me and my thoughts. Please forgive my thoughts of… Heal me and transform me into the person you desire me to be. To your glory and honor, make me, a sinner, as holy as you will. Amen (last part of prayer paraphrased from Oswald Chambers)

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